It's a milestone and I have all colors to paint my canvas

#debsaristories 💃💃 Aaj apun ka bday ch hai bhidu! 🎉🎊 Big party, celebrations, lots of hungama- was exactly NOT what I planned EVER! arey bhai aam aadmi (aurat) hai hum! Lockdown or not, the day was meant to be spent with family, that was the plan always. A movie and restaurant was missed. Some cuddling, some nostalgia and many memories. When I look back, I can't tell whether this was what I planned to be today. I never had plans, not big ones. I worked each step forward, I knew hardwork would give good results, I was taught dishonesty would lead to devastation. I was taught money is important but knowledge is more important. If you have knowledge you can earn money, but the reverse is not always true. When I look back..

🎈 I hardly remember my 10th bday. 

🎈I vaguely remember my 20th... college time and looking forward to life 

🎈I remember celebrating my 30th with bettu, who would then turn three 

🎈I will remember my 40th because it's like the half marathon checkpoint. 

 Self Assessment 

 🏅Checkin with myself if I turned out to be an ok human being 

 🏅Checkin to see that my mistakes in life (I have my own share) dont exceed blessings 

 🏅Checkin to see I continue spread positivity within home and outside 

🏅Checkin that I may not be anyone famous yet meaningful in small ways 

 Lessons learnt 

💪 Nothing happens without a reason 

💪 You may think you planned, you worked and thus achieved. Maybe. But pretty much the truth is, it was meant to be destiny. 

💪Everytime you think this was the worst, wait until the next event and everytime you look back you will see today is better than yesterday 

 💪 If life gives you coronavirus lockdown on birthday, take it. Atleast you are alive to celebrate one! 

💪If you stop complaining suddenly everything becomes beautiful and everywhere its happiness. Dont think chnage of place brings happiness, change of perspective does 

💪 Money is a necessity. But love rules the world 

💪 In my teens I thought love was everything in a relationship, in twenties I realized trust is more important, in thirties I realized respect is key and as I step into forties I know personal space matters. Cant wait for my next decade's discovery! There have been times when I tumbled and hurt real hard, when the path ahead seem blurry. However being myself helped me get along. Positivity, Humor, Integrity and Kindness. This helps. Today when I cross the half mark of life (I may have crossed it way back for that matter) I am thankful to everyone and everything that happened to me. 

 I lived every day like it were my last and will continue to do so! Days without color tv, days without comfort x days missing family when I was a working single, days traveling business class, days vacationing in some of my wishlist places (all in india), days lazing at a star hotel spa -- all meant the same to me. What I have today was not with me yesterday and may not be there tomorrow. So I will be mindful and respectful and thankful for my destiny

I had planned to drape this white with color pencil saree for my bday! ❤ the white canvas and plenty of colors symbolizes how I feel today.. an entire life ahead of me and I just started to paint it with a box of color pencils.